Upset

After nirchitartam we have 3 months of time in hands
I thought i should not waste these valuable days
i planned so many things
after shopping will go on multiple trips and meet my frnds multiple times
and when my dad explained about wedding in conference cal i got that feeling of marriage and i should enjoy it fullest ani
felt so happy and imagined lot of stuff my frnds will come and everything will happen as i thought ani
called all my close frnds and told them to apply for 4 days leave and they have to come 4 days before ani
i even planned about booking tickets for them

Life is so uncertain
corona
everything changed at once
still felt okay our wedding is going to happen and things go in crazy way
started taking everything positively and thinking okay we should even njoy all these things crazily
and even if your brother my frnds relatives no one is coming still i m okay

i thought you will will come fo few days and everything happens when we are together
no one will get change to see pelli kodukuni chese tapudu girl wont get a chance to be part of it and vice versa
but in our case everything happens here and we get chance to be part of each and every occasion to be together
i loved that feel
but when u said we got permission for 24hrs and explaining about ur parents comfort i was unable to take it

from the day 1, I was trying my best not to keep any expectations
but i felt soo bad and unable to explain you all these things dont know why
so created this blog


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